I have always been different.
I thought what was wrong with me, how I ended up being me.
Now I am older, and I ended up much different than other people- which is probably true for most of my friends as well.
It seems like most of my friends are excited to be married and have children.
I never were. It hasn't occurred to me these things lead to happiness for me. It wasn't instinctive for me.
What I can say honestly is that whenever I listen to my inside, I tend to be happier. when I just do what's expected of me, or thought someone else's idea of happiness could be mine too- I get in trouble.
I am mentioning this today, because you might be where I was, when what I wanted to become was so different than other people's aspirations and something might be wrong with me.
Just know this.
Nothing is wrong with you. You are right the first time.
Even if you are wrong, you would own that too- it won't be someone else's mistake. You get to own your mistake and learn from it, rather than blaming others. To me, this has been huge. Because if it's not mine, I can't fix it.
With all that said, here is item #51- I just bought this last month!!
Why am I saying all this....partilly because I bought this. I really didn't like this. I want to say YouTube made me buy it because I listened to YouTuber's ravings of this product, but that's not true- I am fan of certain youTubers, and I wanted to try it. So it's on me. I still love watching them on YouTube- and as to the product I bought, it was really no ones fault. If anything, I should have known I am a kind of girl who wants to finish applying makeup in five minutes (skincare routine, that's another story altogether). Of course I don't have time for contour- I should have known that. so I no longer care if the entire world is contouring happily ever after to the sunset. I know it's not for me, and that's good enough.
So there, item #51- I barely used this, but ELF contouring blush and bronzing cream.